from 2011, to 2012

2011 was a strange year. A very, very busy year. There were tasks that I had set out to accomplish, and I did, praise God. But somewhere along the way, I also got very tired and became disillusioned with a lot of the things that I had held in such importance for quite a while. I came to terms and let go (...or stopped trying?). By the end of the year, I think I can safely say that I became more mature, but was it at the expense of (surprisingly unintentionally) shutting off my emotions?

As I look towards the rest of this year, it's really all up in the air what will go down. Where will I go? What will I do? What relationships will I form, strengthen, keep, break, lose? What ideas, projects, goals, dreams will come up and come to fruition? A lot of questions, not a whole lot of answers.

I'm drained from trying to generate my own strength for the last year — strength to move on, strength to be disciplined, strength to lead, strength to achieve, strength to love (persistently, unexpectantly), strength to believe. I admit I'm at fault, for thinking I could do it all by myself, so please, can You help me?

3 things:
1. I want to dare to dream again.
2. I ask for a vivacity within me, like never before — a fullness of Your life, to give meaning to this life.
3. I need revival.