It's not necessarily more wisdom that I need right now - it's more that I need the courage and the strength to follow through on what I know is right.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:1-2).
Lord, it's hard right now to throw off the things that hinder and to run while fixing my eyes on You - I feel like though the years have passed and I've learned many lessons, I still fail in the same ways, I'm still immature in the same ways, I'm still weak in the same ways. How can I simultaneously feel so different from the person I was three years ago and yet so much the same?
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But Lord, I am amazed by You. I am amazed how You can love me so perfectly without comparing me to anyone else, without making me feel like I have to compete for Your love amongst a sea of people that You also call Your daughters and sons. You call me by my name, not servant #92403574959643. You know me, and You are delighted that I know You, not because it merely feeds Your ego (and You alone deserve to have an enormous ego), but because You love me.
You love me.
Though I don't want to be my same old self, I thank You that Jesus is the same yesterday and today and forever.
You love me.
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praying that our heads and our hearts will match up soon!
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