I don't know if it's that time of year, you know, when the weather gets a bit chilly and those walks back home at 1 AM from whatever study hole seem slightly darker and all you want to do is sit around at home and drink coffee and muse along to music...but I think I am starting to understand what P meant when she randomly told me at the beginning of the year that she wanted a husband.
Okay, let me preface this with two very clear statements:
1. I do not want to get married early, let alone anytime soon.
2. God is and will always be more than enough for me in the emotional sense.
I'm not saying that I legitimately wish I had a significant other because I feel "lonely" or because I have all this free time on my hands - in fact, I think it's the complete opposite. I am (or at least feel) just so busy that I simply can't stretch myself out over a ton of people (even though my heart goes out to a ton of people, and I wish I could devote 3 hours to each person I meet up with)...and so I don't know, I almost wish that I could just come back home and have the company of just one person, without having to exert too much energy constantly talking or doing fun things. I want to do boring things together: I make dinner, he does the dishes and takes out the trash, we read/do work and maybe take a break to watch a TV show or a movie (if it's the weekend), listen to the rain, etc. Nothing earth-shattering, just the simplicity of having one person always be there to share in the mundane moments.
Is this weird? Maybe I just need more prayer and more sleep. LOL k.
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