you have been the one, you have been the one for me

I don't care what y'all say about his voice, because I know it's a bit too high to be considered normal, but James Blunt's first album is pretty legit stuff. I haven't listened to it in a while, but I was just reminded of it and decided to give it a whirl. I still think "Goodbye My Lover" is one of the most well-written love songs, albeit depressing, out there:

(I can't watch it because of Lent, but you can!)

And more than the singing voice, the lyrics are key key key.

lyrics

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes, I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right,
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart, you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child,
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

And I still hold your hand in mine,
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

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But in other news:

1) I honestly don't know why I come off stronger/more put-together than I actually am. It's not like I deliberately try to be that way...but considering even my Comm TA thinks I've got a good grasp on the material/I know what I'm talking about in class even though I've felt super confused for the second half of the semester, there is a strange disconnect between how I feel about myself and how others perceive me.

2) P. Joe's sermon yesterday was really good —

Reasons why we don't pray:

- Insecurity

- Guilt/shame

- Laziness

All three points really convicted me, how I've been putting up walls between me and God for pretty much no reason, how I've been relying on past experiences/lessons/growth to make up for my lack of action/direct communication right now.

3) Oh yeah, I turned 21 this past Monday! Except, I don't feel like it was a particularly special birthday more than others in the past hahaha, or at least in the way that it's so hyped up, but I was pretty blessed! - especially by people I didn't expect (sounds weird/terrible haha, but it's pretty true too).

4) Picking classes for next semester is such a pain...it gets harder as you get older because you're scrambling to fulfill major requirements and trying to make nice schedules that don't make you take classes on Friday...hm...:P

5) I wish the weather would go back to being warm again!! How can Philadelphia tease us so with two days of beautiful weather and then go back right away to cold (and yet tantalizingly sunny)??

Okay, I think that's all the thoughts I have for now...or at least just the ones I feel like writing out, since I am le tired.