goodbye G

After a lot of thinking and talking to my parents, I think it'll be good for me to fast from Gchat for a while. I guess it'll be harder to keep in touch with certain people, but at the same time, it hasn't been doing too much for me anyway — just building up expectations for conversations that will inevitably get cut short by my tiredness or the other person's busy-ness. Plus, since I am now a suburban grandma (aka working lady), I should experience more of what real young adult life must be like: you don't spend hours on Gchat in your evenings waiting for someone to strike up a conversation with you...you go out and live life or you go to sleep to recharge for the next day.

There is something tragic about what day-to-day online communication has come to — words on a screen don't accurately portray what mood that person's in or how available they are; things we wouldn't do in real life meet-ups (vacating the seat to go do something else while keeping the other person hanging; simultaneously watching a TV show while talking; holding 5 other conversations at the same time) are natural and, I suppose, part of the beauty of Gchat/instant messaging.

Perhaps I'm not quite at liberties to go out and meet people whenever I feel like it compared to other people this summer, but I'm sure I'll be able to find something to do, and if I really do want to talk to someone (or someone does want to talk to me), we'll figure out a different way, whether it's calling or Skype-ing. I don't talk to very many people in a given day (work is pretty busy and you only make work-related small talk; there's only so much to talk about at the dinner table), so I'm sure the silences might be unbearable at times, given my personality haha. But God speaks in the silences, and maybe I won't have to try SO hard to hear His voice.

So yeah. No more Gchat until...who knows? That doesn't and shouldn't mean I'm unavailable to talk regardless :)