why so awkward?

Where should I begin? Well first, I guess I'd have to say that I've always liked writing notes on Facebook, so instead of getting them mixed up in between adolescent rants and random surveys about what I ate for lunch and what random songs on my iPod represent my life, I decided to branch off and do my own thing.

The title - "breaking the awkward silence" - I got it from something my pastor made us do this past Sunday. We had to turn to one another and say, "I'm awkward. Are you?" We all laughed as we did this, but yeah, people can be really awkward. What is it about new acquaintances, or maybe not-so-new ones, that makes us feel like we have to fill in every second of our conversations? I certainly feel that need, so I like to just keep talking so the other person won't be quite as burdened. Of course, with my close friends, we can sit there and not speak for a full thirty minutes and feel like we've said everything we needed to say. That's the mark of true friendship: enthusiastic silence. I guess I'm not sure if "enthusiastic" is the right word - I was looking for the opposite of "indifferent." (Caring, compassionate, concerned, interested - they all didn't seem quite right.) Either way, I don't like awkward silences too much because it makes me worry about the other person more than I worry for myself. And since I have so much to say all the time, there's really no need for me to sit in those situations anyway. So even though I can be awkward in general, and so can you - here I go. Breaking your awkward silences, one obnoxious statement at a time.