better is one day

I finally put my new Moleskine journal to good use today.

I had received it for my birthday a little over a month ago, and I had been meaning to write in it - because what good is a journal if you're not going to write anything in it? - and I wasn't sure what I was supposed to write. My friend had given it to me with a card that said that she expected greatness to flow out of the journal, so I wasn't sure if that meant I should write fiction (which I haven't handwritten, or written in general, in a while.)

But today, I woke up at 12:45 pm, feeling very refreshed, and in my good mood, I decided I would spend the day as a me day - I even wrote so on my Gchat status. It was even better because it was supposed to rain like crazy today, and it didn't yet. (And weather is a huge factor in my mood.) A friend then Gchatted me and said, "You should make it a you and God day." So I changed it to that, and wondered how I should spend the day. I saw the notebook sitting on the corner of my drawers, and I decided to go for it.

On Grad Night this past Sunday, I had decided to start keeping a journal. One that will entail my personal (both spiritual and secular, but mostly spiritual) life - it's something that I haven't done in a while. And I am SO. glad that I did.

To be honest, it's been really hard for me to truly experience God lately. I feel like I've been getting more distant and putting up more walls without even wanting to or even realizing it. But man, there's a reason God made me love writing - I found out today that it's seriously such a blessing thing to do for me in order to get closer to Him. Just by pouring out all my thoughts, reflections upon this year, lessons I've learned, my worries and prayers - I felt Him in the room, even though two of my friends were just sitting across the table from me, studying BBB and chemistry. It was like seriously meeting up with God, outside of prayer or the Bible. I gained like two MAJOR epiphanies in the middle of writing it.

Even though, knowing myself, I probably won't write in it everyday, or even a lot when I do, I am so excited to continue writing in it. I can totally understand why and how David wrote all those 893743 psalms. If you're feeling spiritually dry and you don't have a journal yet, I would highly recommend you keeping one. If you hate physically writing, you can even type up one on a Word document or something, something only you will be able to read - because I know blogs can be good too, but they're pretty public.

Today was a very awesome day. I love me&God days :)