jumbalaya

Lots of thoughts:

I don't know if I'll be posting the summer series I had planned on posting, simply because I've found that it's become a bit too personal to make public, so if anyone really wants to read it, perhaps I will take email requests or something when I'm finished haha But also, I need more time than I had originally anticipated, and I don't want to put my blog on hold just because I can't update the story. So yeah.

I head back to Penn in exactly 10 days...or I guess 9 very soon. That's so ridiculous. I'm going to need some major prayerful preparation since I very much want this year to be MUCH better than last year!

There are some people who make me want to be a better person. There are others who help me to remember who I am and what I'm capable of. And yet there are others who bring out the worst in me and make me forget how fearfully and wonderfully I was made by God. Why is that? I really hope I'm not that kind of person for someone else.

Korean rap is so hard. My tongue gets all tied up and I feel like I'm speaking nonsense. I don't know how my brother does it. And I really want to go NRB-ing when I get back to Philly! (Any takers?)

Speaking of Korean, I got a "Loving Muslims Through Prayer" pamphlet from my church two Sundays ago, and basically it is a prayer booklet that you use for 30 days to pray for 30 different Muslim countries. And originally, I was excited and thought it was a great idea, but to be honest, I've been too chicken to actually open it up and start off my 30 days simply because the whole booklet is written in Korean, except for a) the title of the pamphlet and b) the countries' names, (not that I can't read Korean, but it just takes me absolutely forever to wade through a page.) But I guess those are basically the two things that matter the most, right?

God is always teaching me how sovereign He is, and how though I am so so so so so SMALL and just another dot on the mural of humanity, He has a plan that He wants to realize through me and He WILL make it happen as long as I am willing and obedient. As it says in Proverbs 16:4, "The LORD works out everything for his own ends - even the wicked for a day of disaster."

I'm thinking of discontinuing four.six.eight before its end date - I don't really update it all that much and I'm worried that it will become a breeding ground for poorly-written emoness...and there's no reason I can't post up interesting photos on this blog. We'll see.

We were out buying sneakers for my brother today, and honestly, I think Nike high tops are really cool. But what I kept saying to him was, I really don't think it's my style. Sighs, I'm just not legit gangsta enough...:(

Must get crackin' on the list of work I've made for myself...I'm so busy inside my mind but not busy in person...must be because I'm always out of the house for most of the day running errands with my madre (we have a guest arriving this Saturday and staying until 9/6) and then I come home and all I want to do is vegetate.

The bottom line is, I'm not one of the boys.

I wonder what Bangladesh is like...but I don't know if I'll have a chance to visit within the next 5 years.

I love driving!