you'll come

Let Your glory fall as You respond to us.

Spirit, rain, flood into our thirsty hearts again.

You'll come.

I have decided, I have resolved to wait upon You, Lord.

My rock and redeemer, shield and reward

I'll wait upon You, Lord.

Recently, I've been caught up watching this Korean drama (really out of character for me, actually, because I'm really not a huge fan of kdramas) called "My Girlfriend is a Gumiho" (gumiho = nine-tailed fox found in Korean folklore), and honestly, I started watching it because I liked the main guy, Lee Seung Gi (squeal). But the real scene-stealer has turned out to be the main girl, Shin Min Ah, and while I think I've always liked her to a certain extent because of her past work, she has really been driving me nuts with her cuteness overload in this drama! She's got the most sincere and realistic facial expressions, as well as super duper cute dimples. When she smiles all of a sudden, her whole FACE just lights up, and she claps her hands in glee in a way that makes the joy contagious. (She also has the long flowy Pocahontas hair that I've always wanted!) I'm sure people wouldn't say she's the prettiest Korean actress ever, but I really admire her character - innocent yet frank - and her acting...and the fact that she gets to fake-date Lee Seung Gi with matching couple rings and all! (LOL)

She even makes the fobby peace signs non-cringe-worthy because it doesn't look like she's trying so hard to be cute! ♥

As a girl, I admit that it would be super nice to look like her and be able to act like her character (she's not half-bad in real life either!) but recently, a lot of verses in the Bible have been speaking to me even more clearly about how I should strive to become a stronger woman of God instead.

1 Peter 3:4 - [Your beauty] should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

Proverbs 21:19 - Better to live in a desert than with a quarrelsome and ill-tempered wife.

Proverbs 31:25-26 - She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

Psalm 119:73 - Your hands made me and formed me; give me understanding to learn your commands.

1 Corinthians 7:34 - An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit.

They've been making me step back to reassess myself, to reassess my heart before I enter this year. To be honest, my mind has been feeling really fuzzy the past 2-3 weeks to the point where I'm starting to feel almost anxious about returning back to school; I don't know if I'm prepared, and I don't know if I've fully solidified the lessons from this past year into strengths. Am I finally ready to surrender and run singlemindedly towards the ultimate prize of Christ? I want to say yes, I am. Or at least I'll keep trying, because that's what I've decided, that's what I've resolved.

Because surely as the sun will rise, surely as the seasons come and go, surely as I will wander from the path and sin - He will come, and wash over me with grace and love. And He'll sometimes have to remind me yet again that my heart, my body, my spirit is His alone. But the important part is, He'll come. He calls me His beloved, His child - who am I to desire to be anyone else?