day 338

Today is day 338 of 2008. I know this because I wasted about 15 minutes actually counting all the days that have passed.

Just kidding. Actually, the other day, as I was writing in my spiffy little Penn 2008-2009 planner, I noticed two numbers underneath the date: 336/30. And at first, I was like, what the. That's worse than MY vision! But of course, I soon realized (soon being 3 milliseconds) that the first number was the number of days that have passed in the year and the second is the number of days left in the year. And guess what. I fuh-lipped out. Why? Because it suddenly hit me that the year was ending.

And yeah, duh, it's like December. Of course the year is ending. But it just hit me: what exactly did I do with those 336 days? I know what I did in the past two days (including today): I had my first Penn Chamber performance (my first performance in a very long time) yesterday, and then today, I: a) woke up on time for math recitation, b) got out of math recitation early, c) got an amazing breakfast sandwich from Einstein's, d) took a quick 20-min nap, e) saw the cute guy from the first day of math class (he switched out/dropped after that first day), f) got to Spanish early, g) finally got my WaWa hot chocolate, and h) made a lot more progress on my take-home math midterm than yesterday. And that was only in one day.

Starting with January 1st, when I could officially breathe because all the apps were in, to today, sitting in VP Underground. Crazy. I know, I should probably be writing this on like New Year's Eve, but I just feel so flabbergasted at the fact that so much time has passed, and so quickly.

And I think the biggest thing that's slapping me in the face is that I have transitioned from high school to college seamlessly. But at the same time, I have changed so much. And I know some people went back home to their high school friends during Thanksgiving and either found that they had changed or they hadn't at all. And I feel like even though most will say I haven't really changed, they'll feel something is awry. Some would say constant stress and complaining, and yes, true. But it's more than that. I can't exactly voice what it is.

All I know is just that this year has been crazy-full of changes. And I think I'll go one stepping-stone memory at a time in the next few days. So, you be the judge.