epiphany round fifty seven

You'd think that I know by now, but honestly, I always forget.

I am not good at everything. Not everything comes naturally to me, nor am I even all that well-balanced.

In high school, people, my parents, I - we all thought that I was really well-rounded (save for maybe the athleticism factor.) But the truth is, I'm not.

I actually do lean more to one side of the academic spectrum than the other, even if it's by a hair.

I can be highly annoying or obnoxious to certain people.

I cannot sing, or harmonize, or dance, even though sometimes I try to convince myself I can do all three better than the average person.

I actually cannot carry on a conversation in Spanish as well as I think I can, nor can I read Korean. Sometimes I even fail at using English good. (Although yes, that one was intentional.)

I make mistakes and say the wrong things at the wrong time.

I sin, just like every other human being on this planet.

And you know what? That's not okay sometimes, because I let pride get in the way.

I should embrace the side that I am leaning more towards, and admire what other people can achieve on the other side.

I should give back love to those that do care about me and appreciate my personality.

I should be glad that I am still able to use my voice and move about, that I was given the ability to play the violin.

I should be excited to learn those languages anyway, that I have a certain mastery of words so that I might be able to express myself better than the average person.

I should laugh at my slip-ups and do everything in my power to earnestly not commit the same error twice.

I should strive to be better and try to represent my faith in a way that won't get me called a hypocrite.

And maybe, when I finally am able to let go of my pride, I can truly work hard to be right with everything.