sing sang sung

Ever since I was younger, I've always wanted to be able to sing well. I remember wishing I were a pop star and writing tons and tons and tons of mediocre songs about unrequited love and super-cool friends with the oh-so-many experiences of a ten-year-old. I actually had in my head that I was a decent singer, despite a semi-scarring experience of being in my Korean school's choir. But when I recorded myself and played it back, I heard my abnormally deep and oddly-inflected voice and got disappointed.

Which of course, doesn't stop me from belting it out during worship or singing while I'm studying or driving or walking or hanging with friends. 

But every time I watch an a cappella group, I do get insanely jealous because I wish I could do that! I mean, sure, I think I have a decent tone as long as it stays within a certain range of notes. Unfortunately, that range is a bit narrow, so most songs are hard to sing.

But yeah. I totally admire what a cappella groups can do. Before I came to college, I honestly had no idea what they were and/or why people would join and love those groups. But now that I'm here, it's clear to see that it's sort of like a mini-family.

We all seek mini-families - people you just spend way too much time with and come to truly love and appreciate, especially if you go through hardships (of whatever degree) together. We feel safe in these groups, we have at least someone with whom you can share an interest, and we know that even if the rest of the world rejects us, we'll have these groups in which we can feel accepted. 

And I have one. Actually, I think I have more than one. So I'm not envious of a cappella groups in any way more than the sheer fact that I wish I had a better pitch range. And that's only a minor detail.